I think we should just be friends

Why is that so hard for me to say? I was in the middle of 6 Feet Under when my phone rang. I saw that it was B and I didn't answer. Then I felt bad so I called him back. In my head, I was telling myself to just tell him that we should just be friends. But of course, I didn't do it. Why am I such a chicken shit? Why is this so hard? I don't understand why he's still calling me. I mean, I guess he likes me but I don't understand why. I know that sounds totally self depricating, but that's not what I mean. I just don't understand if he thinks there's something there or what because on my part, there isn't. At all.

So I didn't say it. But I will. Next time.