Feeling much better

I feel better now. These past three weeks have been hard. I've been by myself a lot. I mean, I go out on weekends and occasionally during the week, but the majority of my days have been at my apartment. Alone. So I'm looking forward to starting work again. If not for the money, just to have social interaction again.

Starting a new job is always scary. I should know; I've had five (and tomorrow will be six) first days. I'm just talking professional office jobs. I hate not knowing what to do. It's not that I'm afraid of not knowing how to do something because I'm a pretty quick learner, but not knowing how I should manage my time. I know the first few weeks of a job are spent asking the boss, "What should I do now?" I like it when that phase is over; I like to know what I need to do. I hate not know what to do for lunch. Do I bring lunch? Will they invite me out? Should I go to the gym? Can I sleep in my car? I guess all these questions will be answered in time.

I know it doesn't seem that way
But maybe it's the perfect day
Even though the bills are piling
And maybe Lady Luck ain't smiling

But if we'd only open our eyes
We'd see the blessings in disguise
That all the rain clouds are fountains
Though our troubles seem like mountains

There's gold in them hills
There's gold in them hills
So don't lose heart
Give the day a chance to start

Every now and then life says
"Where do you think you're going so fast"
We're apt to think it cruel but sometimes
It's a case of cruel to be kind

And if we'd get up off our knees
Why then we'd see the forest for the trees
And we'd see the new sun rising
Over the hills on the horizon

There's gold in them hills
There's gold in them hills
So don't lose faith
Give the world a chance to say...

A word or two, my friend
There's no telling how the day might end
And we'll never know until we see
That there's gold in them hills

There's gold in them hills
So don't lose heart
Give the day a chance to start

There's gold in them hills
There's gold in them hills

- Ron Sexsmith "Gold in Them Hills"